Friday, March 26, 2010

Rain to Rainbows A Poem From My Heart

From Rain to Rainbows

By Jennifer Jackman

Dedicated to my dear Husband Robert, my Angel baby Marcus Levi, and my rainbows yet to come.

To my siblings yet to come
Let me tell you this today
I’ve gone to earth and felt the love
But also paved the way

When from heaven I departed
I was a little scared
But when I reached my destination
I knew that love was there

I knew the plan
And had agreed to all the things to come
But little did I know
I would have to leave such love

Let me tell you this our mom and dad
Have so much love to give
And when you get to earth
You will see how perfectly you fit

For I heard our mommy’s heartbeat
And I felt our daddy’s hands
And when they are together
The love they share is grand

I miss them oh so dearly
And give comfort when I can
But God has a job for me now
And I cannot let him down

So my dear siblings
I have a job for you
When you get to mom and dad
I have something I need you to do

Let Daddy know I’m still his pal
And will be forever more
For when he gets to heaven
We’ll sit along the shore

Make sure you give mommy
Twice as many hugs
And when she gives you kisses
Know they are sent from god above

For she is very special
And God knows that to be true
For only certain mommies
Can do what she can do

The dreams she had were oh so grand
And the plans she had were to
But little did she know
God had his own plans to

For when God called me home
She had to be so brave
And let her baby go
And lay my body in a grave

So when you get down to her arms
And feel the love she has
Just know that she has felt great pain
And to have you makes her glad

And when our daddy big and strong
Holds you in his hands
Just know his heart is softened
From the trials that he’s had

I wish I could be with them
And miss them every day
But my time on earth was brief
For I was not meant to stay

But the journey that is ahead of you
Will be so very grand
For you will have loving parents
To always hold your hand

And one more thing before I go
I feel I need to say
That I love our mommy and daddy
Each and every day

And when you feel the time is right
I have one more favor to ask
Please tell our parents oh so dear
Of all the love I have

Thursday, March 25, 2010

What Makes a Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes. And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a mother and
I know I heard him say,

A mother has a baby.
This we know is true.
But God, can you be a mother
when your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can, He replied
with confidence in His voice.
I give many women babies.
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime
and others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
but there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this. God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared His throat
and then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you
what your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
with other children and say,

"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of life and love and fear.
My Mommy loved me, Oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom
who had so much love for me,
I learned my lesson very quickly.
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy, Oh so much,
but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
on her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
and whisper in her ear,
'Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'"

So you see, my dear sweet one,
your children are okay.
Your babies are here in MY home
and this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with ME
until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home,
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother—
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of,
right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize you are a Mother,
until their time is done.
They'll be up here with ME one day,
and know you're the best one

I love you baby Marcus!

My angels name written in the sand in Australia.